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50% of the Time, I Wished I Had
Some times in our lives it is not about the single moment or singular situation, it is about an entire string of situation; a whole collection of moments. Wether or not we Kill The Fly, is not necessarily about how we react to just one thing, it could include a rather large amount of things. Over the last month I have had one very large run of bad luck, or tests of will as some may view them. The bad luck began about a month ago when the first crash happened.
I have no spare money, as is the dilemma for many who may read this. My monthly income allows for not one deviation from the plan. It does not permit one visit to the dollar menu, not one trip anywhere if it does not get passed on the way to or from work or school, it does not even have room for one frivolous expenditure like socks or maybe printer ink. My income can not handle a month long string of expensive obstacles. So when my computer first caught a virus and appeared to loose all of my files, I was in a panic. Several days, in fact it was almost a week, this crash was past, yet not recovered from when my hard drive decided to fry. Thankfully I had taken a lesson from my first disaster and retained a copy of my pictures and assignments for school. These two events so close to each other would have been bad enough, were it not for the fact that earlier in the same day as event number 2, my car decided that i needed to blow out it's water pump and leave me to make a tortuous journey home. Hmmmmmmmmm I say, what more to make my already great day. Not having the financial ability to pay someone to fix my car, I was forced to learn something new. Now where as I am not a stranger to working on a car, this was a new one for me. And being that there was not a drop or a dime for any more computer repairs, I had no choice but to parts together my 10 year old desktop, and hope that it will run. Well run it did,, run fast it did not at all, When trying to run anything on the internet I could literally go do some chores around the house while I waited for the desktop to go load a page. As many will agree, this is not a speedy or even successful way to complete any task, so on to solution two. I have a small and many year old ibook that runs very slow, yet still makes tracks in a circle around the old desktop, but it also has no fast processor. I began to attempt through every slow load and locked up screen, to re-do yet again and again and again, my homework that I was now 2 weeks behind in. Alas luck was still not on my side. Many was the night that I would stay up all night and work on my homework, taking cat naps while waiting for pages to load and pictures to save. I was so close to completing things that would make me only a week behind, when low and behold fate struck again and the charger cord for my last remaining computer such as it is, also decided to die. Hmmmmmmmmmm, yet again. What do I do? I had to borrow money from someone who also had to go and deposit the money in my own back, because by now I had not enough gas left in the car to manage the trip; so that I could order another charger online. How long would you say did it take to arrive, that is right you guessed it, an entire business week. Behind yes I was, behind more now i am. And what may I say happened just next? My ibook now charged started locking up all the time and refusing to save my work. Did I throw it across the room you may ask? No I did not yet I admit that the thought past (many times over the last 3 weeks). I did not throw a fit yet is did yell and cry, not a reason could I find to dry my eyes. My son saved the day today, he made me cry with a smile. He lives at my mothers and was up for a visit, and he gave me to borrow his brand new 3 day old MacAir. I love my son. He is the best in the world. Through the trials in life he will always be there for me.
Life was not easy, but it soon shall pass. I made it through this month and I am still ready to try. And I nearly forgot to mention that in the midst of it all, last week I had Carpal Tunnel surgery. This was also a fun moment in time and another delay. Thank God for my Son, who today saved the day. I may have cried and I yelled but never did I give in to the ready at hand basic reaction of throwing a fit. I never for a moment gave in to tossing around the broke shit. I did not, i repeat, I did not although I sure wanted to, this time I did not Kill That Fly
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